Grief, Hashimotos Thyroiditis, Uncategorized

Feeling buried. Hoping it’s just a seed phase.


via Daily Prompt: Patience

What’s that saying about seeds and burying? Life sort of feels that way to me right now,  like I don’t know where I’m going next. Which of course is not really necessary, I can live in trust that the Spirit is guiding me.. go with the flow, live in the moment, all that stuff

But I don’t want to.

I don’t like this place I’m at in life. I don’t like not feeling comfortable driving, or walking for that matter.

Yesterday we were in the local bookstore. I dropped my purse, been over to get it, lost my balance and went backwards.. wound up flat on my back looking up and thinking A) what great yarn shelves these would make and B) this is completely humiliating. I’m never going out in public again.

Now if it were another person dealing with this I would have all the understanding in the world for them.

Kindness  Compassion  Forgiveness  Patience

Somehow , the things I can so readily afford others, I have the hardest time giving to myself.

Love from the holler, Nancy




4 thoughts on “Feeling buried. Hoping it’s just a seed phase.”

    1. Thank you!! My friend Blythe said today she didn’t think people get that when they see her out and looking healthy, that’s the exception.. there are way more days that she can’t get out of bed. She has Reiter’s Syndrome.. my heart just hurts for her. We are going to move our meditation to her house tomorrow night… I think it will help people to understand better if we see her when she’s in a flare up … This autoimmune stuff is so hard to explain ..

      1. It truly is one of the hardest things to explain and understand (for those who don’t experience this). My heart hurts for your friend as well and I hope the meditation is beneficial for her and all who attend. Sending love and strength to you all!

      2. Blessings ! On solstices and equinox, our meditation group does ‘rolling oms’ 108 .. it’s beautiful and always healing, she can’t walk so we are taking it to her. She’s so precious .. it’s sad that when we need our support systems the most, we aren’t able to go to them !

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s