Grief, Hashimotos Thyroiditis

Invisible

via Daily Prompt: Invisible

Invisible Illness

they call it

invisible to everyone

even to me at times

this thing with the vague symptoms

intangible

invisible

sometimes I wonder if it’s all in my head

lab results appear or  someone says

your color is better today

your neck isn’t as swollen

you’re walking better

and I feel validated

absolved of my guilt

Why must I have the opinion of another to make my pain legitimate?

 

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5 thoughts on “Invisible”

  1. You posed such a deep question. I’m not sure about cultures elsewhere, but mountain people traditionally pride themselves with being tough and invincible. I see so much of that in my Mom. Demonstrating to others that you are not lazy, has been a tradition in my family. This mindset is wonderful, in a way, in that is keeps you from giving up. It also does not allow for a lot of self care. Inability to achieve what I thought was expected of me, led me to a lot of self loathing. I remember the tough women of my family. They never allowed themselves to even be sick. How sad. That also makes hard shoes to fill. Therefore, I recommend throwing off you shoes and walking a path that is yours alone. Don’t doubt what you know.

    1. I think that’s what I’m trying to find Karen.. an acceptance ..a way to learn to live with this, without being negative…and to be honest, my heroine women have been the go go go never give up type. In many ways I feel I am letting them down .. letting myself down .

  2. I grew up with asthma, also invisible. I’d hold my breath so no one would hear the wheeze.

    Sorry you have to deal with what you do. I believe soon though, full healing and wholeness will be available to all 🙂

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